December 11, 2011
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don't panic!
hello. yes, i'm still alive. technically.
not much to update. i've been scaling back on the dating thing. if you can call it dating. i've been seeing one guy for not quite a month now. but it's too soon to talk about it. haven't been writing, really. a little brainstorming here and there. but my heart isn't in it. my solace has been the gym, when i go. the mindless pounding, physical exertion. i don't really feel like i'm getting anywhere, but it wears me out and it makes me feel like i'm doing something.
i've been shopping a lot. ha. they raised my credit limit. (eek!). my boss said that for every two presents you buy other people you're supposed to buy one for yourself, but i think i've been doing it the other way around. i'm reacting strangely to christmas this year. it's the first one ever that i won't be home for. in fact i'll be the only one here. so... yeah. half of me wants to pretend it's just another day, keep moving, nothing to see here. the other half loves the season and wants to jump in head first. so i'm kinda flopping all over the place instead.
i keep meaning to live and i keep getting sidetracked. can't really remember what i was doing, though.
Comments (4)
Well, I'm glad you are still breathing.
I'm having trouble myself finding my Christmas season and sticking to it. I'll have it for maybe 4 hours and then WHOOSH its gone and I hate everything festive.
I hate the thought of you being all alone....
You don't know anyone else there that is going to be alone?? You could have like a "strays" Christmas dinner... or maybe volunteer at a soup kitchen or something like that, so you can spread some cheer.
Yay for almost a month... that could be promising if he hasn't driven you to give him the boot yet. I think anyway...
"the mindless pounding, physical exertion...?"
Thought you said you'd been scaling back on dating.....?
In all seriousness I know what you mean (though not from dating, of course.... *sigh.) Exercise getting your pulse going, all that inner turmoil mixed with adrenaline pounding through your veins. Who needs drugs...?
Jump on in. Create a new tradition. Something wholly your own! There's no time like now to do something like that!
@BubblysLife - don't hate. it shouldn't be too bad. i have hermes, after all.
@moss_icon - i am scaling back. i think i mentioned it briefly in my last email. i'll elaborate if i ever write you back. *sigh*
@Viewtiful_Justin - always open to suggestions.